Before I start this, I want to apologize for my flight of ideas. If some of this seems to be off the wall and not make sense, its because my mind just won't quit coming up with stuff!
Today is Monday, like Monday for some reason, always have. Think its because when the kids and I were younger they would be back in school and I could get the house in order.
Forgot to put the year I was diagnosed, I had my surgery right before Easter in 2008. Still have a hard time with the change my life has taken, never in my wildest dreams did I think this would happen. I was a long time smoker so I thought for sure it would be lung cancer not kidney cancer, who'd a thunk it!
I will say that I have met so many great people by having this stupid thing, they are a bright light at the end of this dismal tunnel. I think the hardest thing is living with the changes in my body, the lack of energy and facing the unknown. This is where a strong faith and positive thinking come in to play, thank God for that gift!
Went to see the movie based on Norman Vincent Peale's life when I was about 12 or 13, it was pretty good, guess it was important because it always stayed with me and now is a lifeline to sanity. The girl I went to the movies with at the time was my friend Barbara, she was diagnosed with lung cancer in December of 2008. She had a seizure right before Christmas, the cancer had metastasized to her brain already, very aggressive. She passed away in February of this year. We had known each other from the time we were in first grade, long time to stay in touch with someone. Anyway, the point is, that now I will always say a prayer for her everyday when I read Norman's great words. She will be with me always.
So I use Norman, and my One Day At A Time book from Alanon (another life saver). They can get me feeling better in a few minutes.
Yesterday started out pretty crappy, woke up to a broken heater...great! Tried starting the gas fireplace and it wouldn't work either...double great! It was 60 degrees in the downstairs,there is a separate heater for upstairs that worked just fine. We use Coastline which is run by someone I worked with at the hospital (long story for another time), they came out right away and found the problem: the blower. Wonderful Ed took it back to the shop and before we knew it we had heat. In the meantime, I had already went to daughter's get together and left my husband there to deal with it. The day ended on a good note!
Next time maybe will write about the wonderful people who are helping me through this, they are amazing and I learn so much from them.
No comments:
Post a Comment